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Whip
11 July 2012 @ 07:38 pm
After months of occupational nothingness now I have two companies fawning over me. Seriously... what the fuck... I might have to choose!
 
 
Current Location: Pegognaga, Italy
Current Mood: surprisedsurprised
 
 
Whip
07 July 2012 @ 02:08 pm
Last year I worked for little more than two months as a manual laborer and earned around 2000€, net of taxes. Then I had to pay on that more taxes, 250€, plus another slice of 600€ as "future predicted taxes on potential earnings" and now, it seems, I have to pay another 400€ to compensate for the exit money I got from the job (little more than 100€). To add up, I have 500€ of car insurance, 150€ of car taxes and the thing never leaves the garage anyway, because petrol is too expensive to justify using it. My car is at the moment in need of service as there's something that doesn't work. Ah, there was an earthquake that left me pretty much homeless. I never bought anything for myself in order to save money for a rainy day, I even buy the cheapest food and now I have almost nothing left, for no reason.

And then they wonder why the suicide rate in our country skyrocketed.
 
 
Current Location: Pegognaga, Italy
Current Mood: confusedconfused
 
 
Whip
29 June 2012 @ 09:44 am
What a week... at this point I don't even care anymore, I'm ready, anesthetized for anything life can throw at me... as long as I have a lovely bearded dragon to concentrate on.

Dragon makes me happy... everybody should have one. The world would be a better place.
 
 
Current Location: Pegognaga, Italy
Current Mood: stressedstressed
 
 
Whip
21 June 2012 @ 03:27 pm
I have enough of depressing times. Yes, things still suck, I'm still homeless and unemployed, but there's a bright spark in this 2012 mess. A bright, scaly, red star. Rocco.



This little guy is a 2 months old bearded dragon and... he's just amazing. He's much more than I hoped for and he keeps me an incredible company. I'd look at him for hours. I'll take good care of him.
 
 
Current Location: Pegognaga, Italy
Current Mood: happyhappy
 
 
Whip
06 June 2012 @ 12:06 am
I didn't write anything in a while and, looking back at it, I feel a strong blow of regret. For I wasn't happy of my life in England and now, in a couple of sort months, everything changed completely.

At the end of April, I moved back to Italy. England's job market was absolutely unresponsive, the time I chose to dedicate to the jobsearch there was up, my family started pressuring me, pulling out even the old trick of tears on the phone and I just went back. On a freezing rainy morning I left my partner and mounted on the bus and plane home without even stopping to kiss him goodbye. We didn't split up, far from it, I love him more than the first day. This separation was going to be temporary, until I could put together some more money. Or so I thought.

I went back to an Italy plunged in the worst economical recession since the war. It was immediately clear I wasn't going to find anything to do easily. After a month or so there it was painfully obvious i took the wrong choice, even as a stranger in England I would have had more chances than in Italy now.

Then, the unexpected pinned me here for an indefinte amount of time. On May the 20th, the day of my birthday by the way, northern Italy was hit by a strong earthquake. My area was scarsely affected, but it was especially powerful and unexpected, as no quakes were reported in this area to human memory. When we thought we were in the clear, two more strong events, on the 29th, hit closer to my place. This time my house was severely damaged and I had to move in a small apartment, temporarily, with my dad. The quake killed 25 people, demolished most industrial activities and left many homeless. I hope the worst passed, but another strong tremor just two days ago doesn't allow for any prevision.



http://ingvterremoti.files.wordpress.com/2012/06/mappa_04_06_0900.jpg

http://s458.photobucket.com/albums/qq306/dr_whip/Places/Pegognaga/sisma%20maggio%202012/?action=view&current=P1010778.jpg

I don't know what more to say. I lost a lot and my life is going to change.
 
 
Current Location: Pegognaga, Italy
 
 
 
Whip
10 April 2012 @ 10:29 pm
I know myself only too well, less than a week before I go and I still have to start packing my things away. This is going to be my last entry before I box up my pc, I'm going to send it via the mail within the week. Then I have to gather everything and pack all I need in my three suitcases. It's incredible the amount of stuff I managed to hoard in five years, I'm only allowed a bag this trip, but I'l gather everything so I can bring it back in the future or Arcty can fetch it when he visits me in Italy.
 
 
Current Location: Bristol, England
Current Mood: okayokay
 
 
Whip
06 April 2012 @ 08:11 pm
I leave England in ten days. Tomorrow I'll start de assembling my computer and packing my suitcases, these things can't be rushed or left to the last minute or I'll end up forgetting things here. It feels so strange... a chapter of my life that ends, a new one that begins. I regret lots of things and I curse mainly my inertia, I could have done so much more... but my time is up.
Speaking of time, I'm having this weird phenomenon... time seems to speed up, my days repeat themselves equal, I wake up then go to bed after what it feels like a couple of hours... and sleep for ten or more. I eat shit, I have terrible, terrible nightmares... I'm all fucked up. I guess I don't cope well with change.
 
 
Current Location: Bristol, England
Current Mood: okayokay
 
 
Whip
11 March 2012 @ 03:50 am
What am I doing online at 4 am... I am so obscenely nervous. I need to book the return trip in advance if I don't want to pay an arm and a leg for the ticket... but I can't decide on a date. This time it feels so... final. It's hard to explain. I realize I spent the last five years wandering back and forward, delaying this very moment. And there's no amount of porno pictures or silly video that can make the decision any easier, so WHAT am I doing still awake?
 
 
Current Location: Bristol, England
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
 
 
Whip
07 March 2012 @ 11:37 am
Cat ate the strawberry plant.
 
 
Whip
06 March 2012 @ 06:26 pm
Today I de assembled my little greenhouse and cleaned up the yard after the winter period. I'm putting it all away, I'm not likely to be around to care for my garden and it's not fair to burden Arcty with a hobby he doesn't like. Amongst the dried dead plants I found a single salvageable strawberry plant, I took it inside to see if it'll recover... and if it'll produce a single fruit for Arcty, for when I'm not here anymore, it'll have been worth it.


 
 
Current Location: Bristol, England
Current Mood: sadsad